notes on The Clearing no.2
process notes, ROB:CHAOS
This work I’ve been doing with ‘The Clearing’ is on going from the Creative Space Incubator and Black August Mixtape to now. There is something there, something juicy and chaotic and comforting. There is also stillness in the eye of the (chaotic) storm.
this free write and audio are from and for ‘rituals of becoming: chaotic reckoning’; aka ‘ROB:CHAOS’.
The chaos is in the audio and also us as movers and We are also still, moments of stillness in the eye. We are the eye and the storm. This ebbs and flows. The chaos was conjured wether through consequence (cause and effect) or calling out/in, or trauma or reckoning; the thresholds we walk through are the crossroads we meet at, those points in our lives where we are healing, changing. When we call and there is response.
The clearing is a living entity, a gathering, a balm, there is chaos there too. The chaotic is not always negative. It is unearthing, destabilizing, it requires grounding rituals, breathing techniques, movement to get through and to be with. Chaos ensues when something we are not seeing needs to be seen, when something we are repressing pushes its self all the way up. Chaos offers clarity in an unclear way. Chaos is a roadmap, like anger, teaching us what we need. Chaos is present in healing.
Healing is necessary for and within rituals of becoming. In that becoming there are flat lines and contentment and there are valleys and peaks, highs and lows. There are moments of force, where the cosmos that has knitted us and the clay that has molded us pull us into new spaces. Same bodies, new beings, same essence, new boundaries.
As we heal and shed and become we continue to align with our Higher Self. Stepping through thresholds requires reckoning in liminality. Non-linear healing. Tending to our inner children, nourishing relationships, falling down and also crying out. The pull of being undone to be remade or having parts unravel to be resewen. Falling and watching the body regenerate new cells, tissue, and skin.
Rituals.
Questions/Prompts (a growing list):
What is ‘The Clearing’ for you?
What rituals ground you in the chaos?